Beach Body — Not This Year

Hi and Happy Thursday. I read something on Facebook recently that spoke to me since I do not have a body ready for the beach this summer. In fact, it isn’t even close.  It said, “How to Have a Beach Body: 1. Have a Body; and 2. Go The Beach.”

I added with this that despite me being overweight, I am looking forward to our trip to the beach. I will enjoy myself but may be embarrassed at some of the photos that we take. I will do my best to focus on the wonderful family time that I will have and the fun time with friends. Memories will be made and that is something to look forward to.

Speaking of photos, I have always enjoyed hamming it up for the camera and taking photos with my loved ones. My siblings and I like to be silly, as do Kirk, Ian, and I. But, I was just looking at some from earlier this week, and oh brother, I have some work to do. I don’t like how I look and saw many flaws. So it is time to make changes.

I currently am heavier than I was when Ian was born. That had been my heaviest but now I am beyond it. I have struggled with weight loss and have a constant battle with it. I sit most of the day with family business stuff, things for Ian’s school, and many other things, and don’t get much exercise.  I also love to eat and love my food. So what else is to happen as I have gotten older?

But over the summer, I am trying to walk more, be more active, and eat more healthy food. The past few years have been stressful with lots of changes, family members and friends with major health issues, deaths of dear ones, and a lot going on.  So, food has been a source of comfort. I have eaten while being stressed.  I am working on that as well.

I really and truly want to be around to see Ian grow up.  I also want to grow old with my husband. So, it is time to take care of myself and get back to the size I was before Ian was born.  Although that is still a double-digit, I will be happy to see that again since I felt so good when I was that size.

When I had success before, I did cardio of up to 45 minutes each day, watched my food intake and the sodium.  So, I will work my way up to this again.  I will plan to start with 30 minutes a day of activity and go from there.

This photo was taken in 1990 of me with my brother at the beach. This is my favorite beach to visit and am so looking forward to being there again this summer.  I was in the best shape of my life back then and felt really good.

One problem with where I live is the humidity and the discomfort of being outside at certain times of the day. The beach we always visit doesn’t have that so it is easier to walk.  I plan to do a lot of that during that trip.  I also plan to before and after the trip. And I will be doing exercise inside as well.

I have had successful weight loss in the past and have had heavy times as well. It seems to go back and forth. I just hope and pray that I can get a handle on it. I am going to try. I will add activity, still enjoy my food but try to make better choices, and try not to stress eat.

I have heard a quote that nothing you eat feels as good as being skinny or something like that. I am not to that point yet since I still very much enjoy my food and desserts. I do however, realize that it is time to get a handle on things and do better for myself.

I would appreciate ideas and suggestions, but please don’t judge as I am trying. Thanks and God Bless.

Time For Changes

SANYO DIGITAL CAMERAHi and Happy Monday!  It is time for some major changes in my life.  I mean weight loss changes, and improving my health. I am so over the size that I am, so I have to change.

I have to change what and how much I eat, and I have to change my exercise or lack thereof.  Time to eat better, time to exercise, and time to stop making excuses.

In recent pictures of myself, I don’t like how I look. “Where did that double chin come from?” I asked myself.  And, “how did I get to be this size?” Or “Is it my clothes that make me look fat?” Sadly no, it’s not the clothes.  So, it is the time I realized that and moved on with weight loss 2.0.

I can no longer deny that something needs to be done.  But isn’t it funny that we make excuses to ourselves until we are truly ready to make the changes that are necessary in our lives?  I have been making them for a while.  In order to get better, I have to stop that. Starting today.

Several times in my life I have had to work hard to lose weight.  I am not a person who can do it easily and that in itself is frustrating.  I am on several medications for health issues and would like to stop taking those. My doctor has told me that losing weight will help. He also said that exercise is important, but it boils down to what you put in your mouth.

I have a great appetite and love to eat.  Sometimes I just eat entirely too much food.  My cousin gave me a great idea of using smaller plates and that if the food isn’t in the house, it won’t be a temptation.  She is right.

Before getting pregnant with Ian, I was very successful with losing weight and then maintained it for quite a while.  I was careful with my salt intake and exercised every day.  Knowing that I have had success in the past is very helpful and something I will pat myself on the back about.  And I can draw on that for strength.

My cousin also said it is in your mind.  If I determine and decide to do this, I can.  I have to take care of myself and realize that my health is important.  So, I will schedule exercise time on my calendar and plan the meals carefully. Even though these seem like little things, they are big and very important to maintaining a healthy lifestyle.  That is the key – not to think of this as a diet but my new lifestyle.

Here is an interesting quote on losing weight: Elizabeth Berg said, “Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels.”  I am not quite there since I truly love food.  And, I still want to have some treats so I am not feeling deprived.  I just have to figure out healthier ways to eat those favorite items.  And, each day, I need to be active and exercise.

I am fortunate that my hubby and other family members love me no matter what size I am.  And, my son thinks I am beautiful, which means the world to me.  And, they all want me to be healthy, so here’s to the journey.  I will keep you posted on how things are going.

Any ideas or words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated!  And, if you are on this journey, I’d love to hear from you so I can support you too. After all, we are in this together!

Hi and Happy Monday!

GEDSC DIGITAL CAMERAHi and Happy Monday!  Today is also President’s Day, which is a Federal holiday.  So banks are closed and no mail will be delivered.  Some school systems are out today, not ours.  Ian went today and was ready for a day of learning.

On Friday, school started two hours late.  This was a day after a snow day.  We took this picture on the snow day.  A selfie of Ian and Mommy.  On Friday, Ian traded Valentine’s cards with his classmates, teachers, and teaching assistant.  It was great that the entire class participated.  Ian wrote the cards by himself and did a great job with them.

That night, we had dinner at my parents that night and had a fun time.  It was great to spend Valentine’s Day with them.  My hubby game me some lovely roses that are multi-colored and some fabulous chocolate.

The rest of the weekend was super lazy!  It was so nice.  We stayed home and in our pjs or sweats all of Saturday and Sunday.  We watched some of our favorite shows, made Valentine’s Day cookies, and enjoyed a relaxing time.  It was great and so rare to come by these days.  On Saturday morning, I asked Ian what he wanted to do.  “I want to stay home and play Mommy,” was his reply.  I told him that was fine.

Sunday morning we were planning to go to church but then learned it was cancelled since even more snow had come in Saturday night. That was unexpected. The weather people had predicted snow flurries, but we got another 2 inches of snow.  Then by the afternoon, it all melted since the temperature was warm and the sun out most of the day.  Then this week it is supposed to be in the 60s.  Crazy weather, that’s for sure.

I spend part of the weekend reading, which I always enjoy.  Our books are due in another week back to the library, so I have got to get reading.  What I need to do is read some as I ride my stationary bike.  Speaking of exercise, I saw some photos of myself at my grandmother’s recent birthday party and did not like the way I look at all.

I majorly need to lose some weight!  I have too large an appetite and get too little exercise.  And, I eat when stressed or worried about things.  I really need to get a handle on this.  I would like to be back to a decent size by the summer and really down by my birthday.  However, I know it will take a while since it took a while to gain it.

Nothing like a bad photo to shove you into reality of what needs to change.  Right?!  I have been on this weight loss journey before and know what to do.  I just have to get up and do it.  So starting tomorrow, I am going to start exercising for 30 minutes for 5 or 6 days a week and then work my up to 45 minutes and an hour.  I am also going to work on less food and more healthy choices.  I bought a lot of fruits and veggies at the store today, so that should help.

Wish me luck!  I will need it to stay with it.  I realize that it has to be part of my lifestyle and not just a diet or for a short time.  I have some family and friends who have had amazing success and I hope to join them and once and for all, take the weight off and keep it off.

Take care and have a great Monday!

Weight Loss Update – 5 Pounds Lost!

scaleHi and Happy Wednesday!

Hope you are having a great week.  Mine has been good so far.

When I weighed myself most recently, I had lost 5 pounds!  Yeah!  I still have a long way to go but I am getting there!

I guess it’s the little steps that make the most difference.  And, I have been making them.  I am eating better and making more sensible choices, and have been walking more.

Still there are many pounds to go and many miles to walk or bike.  I won’t let myself get overwhelmed by it — or it would be an uphill battle.

I have lost weight before and know I can do it again.  Here I am pictured at a really good weight 6 years ago with my nephew Aiden. We were at the San Diego airport for a beach vacation.

Vacation 2006 070This was taken before I got pregnant with Ian.  I gained quite a bit of weight during my pregnancy.  Then about a year ago, I gained some more and realized I weighed more than when Ian was born.   That was quite depressing to discover. ARG!!

The size in this picture wasn’t the smallest that I have been but I felt good, was comfortable in my skin and my clothes.  And, my blood pressure was under control.

Now I keep photos like this and others as motivation and inspiration to stay on the journey.

My downfall continues to be too little exercise and stress eating.  Right now, I am super busy and life is quite stressful.  At night, I eat for comfort and that isn’t good.  I don’t do this every night, but it’s enough to make a problem for me.

I am working to change this and find a way to exercise, which always helps me with stress.  I also try to have time to relax and do a few activities that I really love — like reading, word finds, taking photos, writing, walking around the neighborhood, shopping at discount stores and book stores, listening to music and/or dancing and singing, and spending time with Ian and Kirk and friends and family.

In a few months, there will be some changes so hopefully all of this will be easier for me.

I’d love to hear from friends, family, and followers who are also on a weight loss journey or some other journey.  It is always helpful to have others in your corner.

During my journey, I have been learning a lot about myself and what my triggers are.  That has been helpful in making some lasting changes.

I wonder if I will lose more weight this week.  I also wonder what new things I will learn that will help me.  I look forward to the adventure.

Changes Week 1

scaleHi to all of you!  Hope you are enjoying this spring!

If you are in the path of the snow or thunderstorms and other crazy weather, may you be safe!!  This afternoon and evening, we are supposed to get some heavy rain.  I just hope and pray that is all we get.

I wanted to write about a few of the changes that I have started this week in my weight loss quest.  Care to join me?

Last weekend, Kirk, Ian, and I went on a long walk around the neighborhood and that was fun.  I am trying to work in more exercise so that is a start.  Then over the last few days, I have taken short walks and have tried to be more active.

Also as I mentioned in yesterday’s post about cutting my rings, I am working on cutting out late night snacks that aren’t healthy.  Yesterday evening, I had a big bowl of strawberries and a small scoop of light vanilla ice cream.  It was delicious and low on points!  The strawberries were no points at all!!

When I was a teenager I was allergic to chocolate so this was my favorite dessert treat.  It was great to have it last night.  I stayed on track and yet had some comfort food!

Speaking of points, I have started tracking my food again on Weight Watchers Online.  I love that there are so many fruits and veggies that are no points.  So I can eat salads either as their own meal or supplement them with something I really want.

As the commercials say, you can eat everything, just have to be careful about the portion size.  This is something that I can do!!  And, I am ready to do it!!  It is time for my lifestyle change.

Tonight I have a date with my son.  We are going to make dinner together — pigs in a blanket which he loves to help with, broccoli, and mashed potatoes.  And, we will watch some episodes of Busytown Mysteries.  Sounds like fun, don’t you think?

Since I have planned and tracked my day, I can enjoy this meal with him without stressing about it!  Isn’t that cool?  I sure think so.

I know that all weeks won’t be easy but taking the time to think about my food and exercising will make a difference.  These are things I haven’t been doing for a while.

I wonder what new low-point food I will find this weekend.  I look forward to finding out.

Cutting My Rings

ringsOn Friday afternoon of last week, I had to do something that I never thought I would.  I had to have my engagement ring and wedding band cut off my finger at a jeweler.

Thankfully the jeweler was very nice so I didn’t feel too bad while I was there.  That wasn’t until afterwards.

He said, “We’ve seen worse than this.   Give your finger about three weeks to a month to return to normal and the swelling to go down.  Then we can resize your rings for you.”

“Thank you,” I said.  “I will be in touch.”  I left with a sore and naked finger, and wanted to cry.  I couldn’t help but think, how did it come to this?

My finger had swollen quite a bit and since the rings together go almost to the first knuckle, it all was becoming way too tight and starting to be bad for my finger.

Now my ring finger is bare and healing again.   It looks very strange without a ring since I have been wearing one or both of them for 15 years.  This fall will be our 15th anniversary.

The only other time that I couldn’t wear my rings was when I was pregnant and when Ian was first born.  Clearly now, it’s because of my weight and that is upsetting.

I am trying to look at this as the sign that I needed that yes, it is time for some major changes.  And, since I haven’t liked how I look in recent pictures, I want to and am ready to change and finally lose this weight.

After all my son is 5 years old so I can no longer can blame it on the baby weight.   It is a lack of exercise, too much stress, and the need for a better diet.  I need to be eating more fruits and veggies, and a healthier overall diet, and being active each day.

When I was active each day, I felt better and was better able to deal with life’s stressors.  But as I can attest, it is so easy to get into bad habits and stay there.  Time to bring on the good habits again.

I have had success before with losing weight.  Weight Watchers has worked for me as well as 45 minutes per day of cardio activity.  I will be incorporating both of those again.

When I was a senior in college, it was much easier to lose weight than it is now.  Back then I lived on the third floor of the dorm with no stairs, walked all over campus for classes, and took a weight class three times a week.

I was in the best shape of my life.  I looked great and never thought twice about what I ate or what I was doing.  I was just living and since I was so active, my body could more easily process what was going in.

I probably won’t be back to that size again, but I can certainly make some major changes.  I want to get into the size I was when I got pregnant with Ian.  I will be happy with that!

My goal is to make one change each week and try to incorporate that into the overall plan.  I am realistic enough to understand that it took time to get to where I am, so I need time to make the changes.

This week is to work on cutting out the late-night unhealthy snacks which are often a result of stress eating.  It is calming but not the best idea.  Part of my problem is that I love food and love to eat.  I will be working on what I eat and how much.  As a friend of mine mentioned, it is a lifestyle change, not a diet.

I wonder if I can truly make one of these changes each week?  I think that since I am motivated that I will be able to do so.  One week at a time and one day at a time!

With Spring Comes Change

springWith spring, comes new life and changes for me as well.

I have pain in my lower back, am overweight and stressed out and am getting no exercise or activity.  I realize that it is time for some major changes.

My diet needs to change, I need to exercise each day for both my heart and to lose weight, and I need to get away from the stressors and stressful people in my life.

I wanted to put this out there so I would in fact make these changes.

I appreciate your comments, suggestions, and support.   Who is with me?

I will keep you posted through blogs and the 90 Days of Exercise Page.

I wonder if I can truly make these changes and have them stick this time.  I am going to do my best to do just that!!