Prayers and Heartbreak

Yesterday at church, we prayed for three of our loved ones — two suffering from cancers and the other from depression and other issues.  The two guys (one a child and the other an adult) with cancer are in the advanced stages and things don’t look good.  We continue to pray and hope for the best but who knows what the Lord has in mind.  Not me, that’s for sure.

I am praying for miracles. I am praying for all signs of cancer to be gone. I am praying for complete healing. I selfishly want my loved ones to be healed and back to themselves. I want them to be able to do everything again and not to suffer anymore.

I want long lives for them without pain and suffering and without this dreaded and terrible illness. Yet, these don’t seem to be the answers for several of my loved ones. It seems the Lord has something else in mind and that is heartbreaking. And hard to reconcile.

As hard as it is to think we soon may have to say goodbye, there is comfort in knowing they will be going to Heaven when it is their time.  They are believers and that is an amazing blessing.  That is what I grew up believing and it is comforting. Yet it is still so painful and hard.

The other loved one who we prayed for has been battling some issues for a while.  She is amazing and great to talk with. I earnestly hope and pray that she can find answers, love, comfort, support, and healing, and beat these issues.

In addition to these three, I have many other loved ones battling various stages of cancer, illness, injuries, loss, deaths, and pain.  They all are amazing and brave in the fights that they are in.  May they have comfort in knowing they are not alone.

Living the faith we say we have is hard, especially when seeing people in pain.  However, the Lord promised He would always be there to carry us through.  He knows better than we do what we need and what to provide for us.

Despite all of my sadness, I am comforted by the scripture Jeremiah 29:11 that states, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

He knows the plans for us and doesn’t want to harm us. Wow, isn’t that incredible? So may we cling to that and believe that no matter what the answer is, we will be okay. I just have to keep reminding myself of this truth.

As tears roll down my cheeks as I think of these loved ones, I will try to remember this and receive some comfort from it.  Sorry for the downer blog today but this is what is on my mind this morning.  If you are suffering, may you find comfort, healing, and hope. May you know that you are not alone and that you are loved.

To Making It Count!

In the movie “Titanic,” the characters raised a glass in a toast and said, “To making it count.”  That is such an important phrase to remember, and yet, I know that we don’t always make things count.

This morning I found out a friend of mine in college died.  She lived each day to the fullest and knew how to make it count!!

Her name is Shelli and she fought a long and very hard battle with cancer.  She went through treatment on and off for many years and was in constant pain.

And yet, she was thankful for each day the Lord gave her.   And she was one of the most positive people I have ever known.  She also was constantly praying and had a very strong faith.

I had lost touch with her in the years since we graduated from college.  Then in 2010, I saw her at a reunion at our alma mater, Carson-Newman College in Jefferson City, Tennessee.   We then stayed in touch over the years, mainly through Facebook.

It was great to see the fun things she did with her husband Joe and their children.  And, to also share in prayer support when needed.  Shelli was a blessing to me and I know to her many friends and her family.  She will be greatly missed.

Dear Lord, I hope that I too can make each day count and truly live my faith as my friend Shelli did!  Please welcome her to Heaven with your open arms!!  AMEN.