Cutting My Rings

ringsOn Friday afternoon of last week, I had to do something that I never thought I would.  I had to have my engagement ring and wedding band cut off my finger at a jeweler.

Thankfully the jeweler was very nice so I didn’t feel too bad while I was there.  That wasn’t until afterwards.

He said, “We’ve seen worse than this.   Give your finger about three weeks to a month to return to normal and the swelling to go down.  Then we can resize your rings for you.”

“Thank you,” I said.  “I will be in touch.”  I left with a sore and naked finger, and wanted to cry.  I couldn’t help but think, how did it come to this?

My finger had swollen quite a bit and since the rings together go almost to the first knuckle, it all was becoming way too tight and starting to be bad for my finger.

Now my ring finger is bare and healing again.   It looks very strange without a ring since I have been wearing one or both of them for 15 years.  This fall will be our 15th anniversary.

The only other time that I couldn’t wear my rings was when I was pregnant and when Ian was first born.  Clearly now, it’s because of my weight and that is upsetting.

I am trying to look at this as the sign that I needed that yes, it is time for some major changes.  And, since I haven’t liked how I look in recent pictures, I want to and am ready to change and finally lose this weight.

After all my son is 5 years old so I can no longer can blame it on the baby weight.   It is a lack of exercise, too much stress, and the need for a better diet.  I need to be eating more fruits and veggies, and a healthier overall diet, and being active each day.

When I was active each day, I felt better and was better able to deal with life’s stressors.  But as I can attest, it is so easy to get into bad habits and stay there.  Time to bring on the good habits again.

I have had success before with losing weight.  Weight Watchers has worked for me as well as 45 minutes per day of cardio activity.  I will be incorporating both of those again.

When I was a senior in college, it was much easier to lose weight than it is now.  Back then I lived on the third floor of the dorm with no stairs, walked all over campus for classes, and took a weight class three times a week.

I was in the best shape of my life.  I looked great and never thought twice about what I ate or what I was doing.  I was just living and since I was so active, my body could more easily process what was going in.

I probably won’t be back to that size again, but I can certainly make some major changes.  I want to get into the size I was when I got pregnant with Ian.  I will be happy with that!

My goal is to make one change each week and try to incorporate that into the overall plan.  I am realistic enough to understand that it took time to get to where I am, so I need time to make the changes.

This week is to work on cutting out the late-night unhealthy snacks which are often a result of stress eating.  It is calming but not the best idea.  Part of my problem is that I love food and love to eat.  I will be working on what I eat and how much.  As a friend of mine mentioned, it is a lifestyle change, not a diet.

I wonder if I can truly make one of these changes each week?  I think that since I am motivated that I will be able to do so.  One week at a time and one day at a time!

Family and Friends

flowerMy weekend hasn’t gone the way I expected to.  Do you ever have a weekend like that?

First I was supposed to go to my cousin’s renewal of vows.  She invited us months ago and we were all set to go.  But then for a variety of reasons, we weren’t able to make it.

I am sad that I wasn’t there to see them and their family.  It has been a few years and I miss all of them.  It was supposed to be a weekend of fun and family and we had to miss it.  Bummer!!!

We will try again in a few months for a visit.  Hopefully then the timing and plans will work in our favor.

Then tonight is my niece’s confirmation.  We weren’t able to go to that either, although we did want to.  I am thrilled for her and her family.  This is a very special time for her.

She is growing up into a lovely young woman.  It is great to be a part of her life and see her when we can.  Unfortunately, that isn’t as often as I’d like.  I hope to see my niece and her family very soon as well!!

Several road trips for me, that’s for sure!!!

Instead today, I had lunch with two friends who are in town for a writer’s seminar.  It was great to see them and catch up from last year.  The three of us met at last year’s seminar and instantly clicked.  Since I was supposed to have other plans, I wasn’t able to attend the seminar.

Have you ever met people who you clicked with?  I remember that happening when I was in school, but it has been a while since I have been a grown woman.  It happened in MOPS and then last year at the seminar and with some friends from my high school reunion committee, and a few other times in life.  But it is rare and wonderful.

These author friends and I have stayed in touch for a year.  Seeing them in person was fantastic!  We had so much to talk about at lunch.  It was so much fun!!

Books2Both of them have published books.  I can’t wait to read them!  I now have copies of the books and I am thrilled.  I will be reading them and letting you know what I think.  Should be fun!  And, hope to join them as an author of a book!

After lunch, Kirk, Ian, and I took a walk around our neighborhood and then did some yard work.  It was a lovely day and gave us a little taste of the spring weather that will be here soon — at least I hope so.  And it was without the pollen!!

Tomorrow will be church and some time to relax, at least I hope so.  I also want to get in touch with a few of my friends and family who I didn’t get to see this weekend.

My friends and my family are so very dear to me.  I am fortunate to know such a variety of great people who have enriched my life.  May I never take them for granted.

I wonder if this week will be more what I expect than this weekend was.  I sure hope so, since the unexpected can sometimes be stressful.  But, we tried to make the best of it!

Time to Lose Week 4

Hello and hope you are having a great January 31. Can you believe that it is already the last day of the first month of a new year? I can’t.  This month seems to have flown by.

The weight loss journey continues.  It is hard to believe it that I have been at this a month already.  Seems like I am getting nowhere fast.  But then again I have had some very bad habits and routines for a long, long time.

I did make a breakthrough just yesterday that I have to share with you. I had some blood work done at the doctor and before that a fast of 12 hours was required.  That was fine since the night before the fasting time, I ate 94% fat-free kettle corn for my snack with some ice-cold water.  Yummy and filling.

After the trip to the doctor, I had an errand to run and was also hungry. I had a hard time deciding what I wanted to eat. I went to one of my old favorite fast food restaurants, walked in, and then realized, I really don’t want this. The thought of that greasy food almost made me ill. So I left.  And, it’s a good thing — they were so busy, a long line inside and cars waiting in the drive-thru — all the way around the building.

I came back to the house and ate a protein bar, part of a banana, cheese, water, and coffee with cream.  That was much more satisfying than my other option would have been. I have to say that was a real win for me in my day-to-day walk with the correct food options. I couldn’t help but say, yeah me! (This is something that I think we should be doing — it’s important to celebrate your victories.)

The rest of the week has had good times and bad times but the weight has remained the same.  And I must say that although the scale didn’t change, I am relieved and pleased that it didn’t go up.

For people who don’t have a struggle with weight loss, you may wonder, why isn’t it just an easy change to choose the healthy food? Some days it is easy and other days it isn’t. I am trying to work through the hard days and learn each week a lesson that will help me continue to meet my goals.  I truly want my health to improve so I must do this – hard as it may be sometimes.

I find that the more healthy choices I am making, the more healthy choices I want to continue to make.  You know what I mean?  It seems the body seems to start craving the good deep green lettuce, the crunchy carrot, the whole grain pasta with grilled chicken, and other tasty and healthy foods.

The other challenge continues to be exercise.  I have been doing more walking and am enjoying being outside – especially with this unseasonably warmer winter that we are having. Just some days, it seems to end up at the end of the list of things that must be done. You know what I mean?

In years past, I have been very active and regularly worked out.  That was before becoming a mother and having more demands on my time. I just am realizing more and more that I just have to schedule it and then do it!

I hope and pray that I can work more exercise into each day this coming week. I wonder what new lessons I will learn. I am sure there will be something.

Time to Lose Week 3

Hello and Happy Tuesday!

I am on week 3 of the weight loss program.  Last week, I didn’t have a chance to write a posting about my progress.  I didn’t gain or lose so I suppose I was continuing to make some good decisions.

This week I have gained 1.5 pounds.  I seem to be going in the opposite direction. That has made me stop and think about what I am doing wrong, or not doing.

As I wrote in my last posting, this past week has been pretty stressful! And I noticed something, I tend to eat comfort food and eat it late when I am stressed. Can anyone else relate to that?

That is something at least – realizing the triggers for eating the bad food choices. I still have much work to do but I feel that is a good step.

Another problem, since things were so crazy this week, there was little time to exercise.  I have come to realize that this must be scheduled in my day in order for me to do it and then turn it into a habit.

I will spend this week continuing to improve my habits and my routine. I want to continue to stay aware of what I am eating and my exercise.  All I can do is try each day and if I stick with the lifestyle change, I will lose.

I wonder if I can handle my stress better this week — with exercise instead of the old standby munchies. I am going to try each day and see what happens.  I just have to realize that some weeks will be harder than others and that’s okay. True and lasting change takes time.

What a Week!

Have you ever had one of those weeks?  A week when you are just glad it’s just over? A week when nothing seems to go as it should? A week when you are out of your normal routine and groove? This week has been one of those weeks.

I don’t mean to complain too much.  Because after all none of us is truly ill or suffering and there is work to be done.  But it is still frustrating when so much seems to go wrong.

Sunday started out fine but before church, our son had a small tantrum.  That made us late but at least we made it.  He then calmed down and we enjoyed a great church service and lunch out.

But then we went to the store where my son had a meltdown. This was worse than the first one. While trying to shop for things we were totally out of – milk, cheese, creamer, peanut butter (our staples), he was crying, sitting in the floor, and being noisy.  I finished as quickly as I could and he finally calmed down by the time we left the store.  My apologies to the other shoppers.  Needless to say I was mortified!

He was tired and had been up too late the previous nights – one night for my Grandma’s 91st birthday party and the other to hear about the Clinton 12 (more on that in a blog this week) and then had a late dinner.  Lesson learned — when we have a special event, the rest of the week has to be early or on-time bedtime.  No exception. Other lesson, next time, we will leave the store and not come back until he is calmed down.  The only upside is that Sunday night he slept for 12 hours.

Monday was a good day and we enjoyed the Martin Luther King Jr. holiday.  This was a day to relax and play and read. An amazing man and such an eloquent speaker! I may write a blog just about him sometime.

Then Tuesday was busy with a great visit with my mother-in-law, trip to the library and some other errands, and finally a home owners association meeting that evening.  The day seemed to fly by so I had no time to write my weight loss blog.  That was a bummer.  FYI, my weight has stayed the same this week.  Although I wish I’d lost, at least I didn’t gain any weight!

Then right before I went to bed, I checked something on my computer and it crashed. There seems to be some sort of virus that asked me to buy more to help fix it.  That is a con so be wary! That night, I got almost no sleep.

On Wednesday, our friend who does computer work came over to see how to fix our problem.  He worked a while that day, that evening, and then had to take the computer with him. For two days I was without that computer, but thankfully there is a backup which I am now using! When you are used to having a computer it is very hard to function without one.

Thursday I woke up to clogged ears and a sinus headache.  Last summer I had these symptoms and it turned out to be a double ear infection. Oh well, I will go see the doctor on Monday and see how to treat it. The rest of the day was nice and included lunch with my parents and grandmother.

Friday was a little better but still not feeling very good.  And, I don’t have time for that. You know what I mean?  Today it is raining and a good day to stay in and try to rest.

Actually now that I have written all of this, it doesn’t seem as bad as it did as I was dealing with each day. Just goes to show that you can get totally wrapped up in things! And, that we often can make things seem worse than they really are.

I wonder if next week I can learn to be better about taking each day and each moment as it comes and not getting so rattled.  I am going to try, that’s for sure.