Mommy’s Wednesday Mistake

sad faceToday I feel like the worst mother in the world.

My son Ian is doing well on using the toilet these days but still needs help when he goes poop.  This morning he went to the bathroom and I told him I’d be right there. Well, I wasn’t right there.

In fact, I didn’t respond for a while.  So, it scared him.

My poor little boy called for me and I didn’t answer or respond.  I couldn’t hear him since I was on the other end of the house.

I finally went back to the bathroom after Kirk told me that he was crying in the bathroom.

Can I just tell you how I felt?  TERRIBLE!!  Not only did I inadvertently make my son cry, I also scared him.  I was busy on my computer while he was in the bathroom and got totally sidetracked and when I realized what I’d done, I felt so bad.

When I saw him, I too cried and apologized to Ian.  You know what he said?  “It’s okay Mommy,” as he looked at me with tears in his little blue eyes.

He is such a sweetie!

I truly feel like I should be in the dog house, but my son was loving and forgiving!  I love that I can learn about this from him.

Aren’t children amazing? They deal with the present, forgive, shed some tears, and move on.  If only I could live like that!

I hope and pray that I have a better rest of this Wednesday!  Hope you have a good one as well!!

The Hiding Place

“This is what the past is for! Every experience God gives us, every person He puts in our lives is the perfect preparation for the future that only He can see.” — Corrie ten Boom

This was a quote from “The Hiding Place.”  I remember this book growing up since my mother had a copy of it.  We were always quite impressed with this woman who was such a pillar of Christianity.

Last night, I was again reminded of how truly amazing she was.  The Insp network aired “The Hiding Place” movie, which was released in 1975 by the Billy Graham Association.

Although this is an amazing movie about Christian faith and Christianity, it is very hard to watch.  I shed a lot of tears over what happened to ten Boom and her family.

A short synopsis from IMDB (an Internet movie database) states, “Suspected of hiding Jews and caught breaking rationing rules, they (the ten Boom family) are sent to a concentration camp where their Christian faith keeps them from despair and bitterness.  Corrie must learn to forgive.”

When I started watching the movie, Corrie, her sister Betsie, and their father Casper and some other family were running a clock shop in Holland.  They later started assisting Jews when the Nazis invaded their country.  They hid them in a portion of their house and allowed them to live with them.

Then, one day, they got caught.  The entire family was kicked out of their house for alleged crimes and their home was boarded up.  As they were being driven away, Casper tells the Nazis that if he is allowed to stay in his home to die, he will open it to as many Jews as he can.  Needless to say, the soldiers don’t like that comment at all.  But, what a powerful thing to say as he was being whisked away with nothing.

This family truly lived and practiced their faith each and every day.  This was shown both before and after they were taken away from their home and business.  They were then separated for a while.  The sisters are eventually reunited and find out their dear father had died.  They are subsequently sent to a concentration camp with many other women.

The women were crammed into train cars with almost no possessions and transported for a few days without food or water.  They were then crammed into rooms and forced to work without adequate rest, water, food, or medication.  Each day, they are given one small portion and one small bowl of soup.  They are treated as animals, well worse than any animal should ever be treated.

It is painful to see people being treated like less than a person.  No respect or dignity was given to these women who were accused but not convicted of crimes.  The hardest thing to realize is that so many people went through this — men, women, and children.  And, to realize that this movie was a true story and actually happened to a family makes be tear up just thinking about.

I truly do not and cannot understand hating someone that much.  How can you treat another human being so cruelly?  It makes no sense to me and I must say I am thankful that it doesn’t.  This movie shows so well what happens when evil takes over and the love of God is not present.

And, yet is was present for Corrie and Betsie — despite all they were dealing with, they prayed daily and read their Bible, which they snuck into the camp.  I was in awe of being able to still believe in our Lord despite everything.  They both realized that He loves us no matter what and is always there to help us through whatever trial we are going through.  And, they discuss the fact that He too was beaten and suffered and died on a cross.

Corrie does tell her sister at one point that she hates the Nazis, but she still prays for them.  As scripture says, we are to love one another and pray for those who persecute us.  These incredibly strong women did just that.  What a powerful lesson to learn from them.

If women in that situation can believe that, surely I can do the same.  I must say that hearing such an incredible testimony has strengthened my faith and appreciation for all the freedoms that I have.

The fact I have food, water, can read my Bible, and worship as I do are so precious and wonderful and amazing gifts.  May I never take them for granted.

I hope that you too can realize how much God loves you and will be there for you no matter what.

Some quotes from the incredible Corrie ten Boom:

  • “Even as the angry vengeful thoughts boiled through me, I saw the sin of them. Jesus Christ had died for this man; was I going to ask for more? Lord Jesus, I prayed, forgive me and help me to forgive him….Jesus, I cannot forgive him. Give me your forgiveness….And so I discovered that it is not on our forgiveness any more than on our goodness that the world’s healing hinges, but on His. When He tells us to love our enemies, He gives along with the command, the love itself,” from “The Hiding Place.”
  • “Forgiveness is an act of the will, and the will can function regardless of the temperature of the heart.”
  • “What wings are to a bird, and sails to a ship, so is prayer to the soul.”
  • “You can never learn that Christ is all you need, until Christ is all you have.”

The Ability to Forgive

“To err is human, to forgive divine.”

This morning I saw a story on the news that gave me pause.  A woman was explaining a situation she was in that in her mind was unforgivable.

I can totally understand how she would feel this way.  You see, her daughter was killed in a hit-and-run car accident.  And, her daughter was pregnant at the time of the accident so she lost two loved ones.

She did say that the man who caused the accident ran from it, went home, cleaned up his car, and then went on with this life with no apparent thought or conscious about what he had done.  She mentioned that she could have forgiven him if he had owned up to what was done but instead he ran away.  Thankfully he has been arrested for this crime.

I feel truly awful for this woman who lost so much in such a senseless act and can totally feel for her.  As a mother, I could not even imagine the pain of losing a child.  And, I too would be truly devastated.

The fact that she even said she might have been able to forgive is amazing to me, considering what happened to her family.  Forgiveness is truly one of the hardest things ever in life since it means having to come to terms with something that is often the absolute worst in one’s life.

Can we truly do this as Christ calls us to do?  Can we forgive someone when they have taken something away that is the most precious thing in our life?  Truly we don’t know how we would feel until we are in that situation.  And, sometimes it takes years, if it can ever be done.

And it also made me stop and think, are there things which are unforgivable?  What do you think?

As I mentioned, we are called by Christ to forgive one another.  But that is a very difficult thing to do.  To let go of the pain and the anger is a real challenge.  And sometimes it takes each and every day for years to see if we can forgive.  And sometimes in life we may never get there.

But I think the thing to remember for our own sanity’s sake and our own well-being, is that we do have to try.  Otherwise we can be eaten up by the hate and the anger and the loss.  And that is no way to live.

My own family has been dealing with a terrible loss which is very hard to forgive and let go of.  We are struggling with it each day.  My sister-in-law was brutally murdered during a home invasion while my brother-in-law (my hubby’s brother) was away on business.  I wasn’t very close to them but still feel the loss and have seen the effect on our family.  During the crime, my niece was seriously injured but thankfully and amazingly did survive.

She and her father have been a true inspiration to me as they have dealt with this horrible situation.  They are coping the best they can and have even started a scholarship for nurses in my sister-in-law’s name that is helping people in the profession that she loved so much.  Wow, what a great thing to focus on.

They also worked to change the law in their state for such a crime to include the death penalty as a punishment.  This wasn’t in place at the time.  However, four young people were found guilty of these crimes and are in prison for a long time to come.

I don’t have the answers to forgiveness but know beyond a doubt that it cannot be put into practice without God’s help.  To do this on our own with our own human minds just doesn’t work.  Do you have thoughts on this?  Please share them.

Here is a quote that sums up to me in a nutshell what forgiveness is.  It is from the web site.

“Forgiveness isn’t something we do for other people.  We do it for ourselves to get well and move on.”

If you are dealing with a situation that to you seems unforgivable, my hope and prayer is that you can remember a quote like that.  It may just be what you need to hear.  I know that it has been for me.