Or town as the case may be. That is our case since we live in a small city or town. It does look like Christmas and is that time of year. It is amazing that Christmas is one week from today. Are you ready? I am not but almost.
Yesterday, I bought a few more gifts and took care of a few errands. Tomorrow, I will mail our cards and a package or two. They are late but at least they are almost finished. Tonight, we have an Advent supper and service at church. Those are always nice and a great way to prepare for the big day next week and to remember what it is all about.
I still need to wrap everything, get our stuff ready, and buy a few more gifts. And we are waiting for a few items to be mailed that we ordered for special gifts. Just hope they arrive in time. We are getting close. And, there is still a small amount of homework and a few items of work and projects that I am trying to finish.
But along with all of the activity and commitments, we are having down time. We need time to rest so that has to be a part of it. At times this makes me feel lazy and feel that I am not doing enough. I am trying to give myself permission to take it easy when I need to. And at other times, be quite busy. That balancing act can be a real challenge.
I continue to be a work in progress. I feel I am failing at some things that haven’t gone as I had planned over the last year. In other areas, I feel that we are on track. My priority has been the two of us and our sanity and trying to stay on track with school and work. Beyond that, I try to my best but often fall short.
This is our second Christmas without Kirk. Part of me feels festive but part of me is lost and sad that he again isn’t here to celebrate with us. Last year, I was still very numb and in disbelief of his loss. This year, I more clearly feel the loss and will miss him and all of the fun that we had over our 20 years together. I will miss our traditions that he always made a lot of fun.
I am looking forward to having time with our loved ones, to seeing Ian’s excitement over the gifts, the food, and time to relax and not have our busy routine for a few weeks. I am taking several days off to be with him. I am so looking forward to that. We plan to see the new Star Wars movie, have time with friends and family, and maybe play a game or two. We will spend days in our pajamas and laugh about something funny that we have heard about or watched on a show.
And, we will take pictures — that is if I remember to this time. We also will continue to talk about his dad, laugh about jokes that he liked to tell, look at pictures of the three of us and him with other family and friends, and remember how blessed we were to have him in our lives. Kirk loved being a dad and was very proud of his son. And, I know that he loved me and that means the world.
Some of the seasonal things we are already enjoying are:
- Special Christmas music by our choir – we did 5 songs this past Sunday — my family came to sing with us and that was an amazing blessing.
- Advent calendars that are opened each day – one from church with scriptures and candy and the other a Lego Harry Potter set — this has been fun each day for Ian and for me.
- Christmas movies and shows – we have seen a few of these on the Hallmark Channel and Lifetime Network — but want something other than just a love story.
- Our city’s Christmas parade – we watched that with our neighbors and received a lot of candy from those in the parade.
- Hot chocolate and candy canes — two of my favorites chocolate and mint; also hot chocolate is great to enjoy with popcorn.
- “It’s The Most Wonderful Time Of The Year” by Andy Williams — this is my favorite holiday song performed by one of my all-time favorite singers.
- Silent Night, Holy Night – a favorite hymn that I enjoy singing. I have a pin that states, “All Is Calm, All is Bright” that I like to wear this time of year.
- “Do They Know It’s Christmas?” by Band-Aid — a song released in 1984 to raise money for several causes. It is a bit sad but lovely. And, it touches on the suffering and pain that people are dealing with, regardless of the time of year.
- “Mary, Did You Know?” – a very moving song that our choir sings on occasion.
- The “White Christmas” movie — my favorite movie for Christmas with great songs, a fun story and a lot of funny moments. I usually sing along with every song.
- “Elf” the movie — one of the funniest Christmas movies.
- Rudolph and Frosty — two childhood favorites that I still enjoy watching each year.
- A Charlie Brown Christmas — I just love the Peanuts gang and all of their quirks. and unique personalities. And you just have to love that little old tree and the real meaning of Christmas.
We hope that you have a great Christmas, have time with your loved ones, and can truly enjoy the meaning of the season.
May you have love, peace, kindness, and respect in your life and may you be blessed.
Jesus is the Reason For The Season. Merry almost Christmas!!!!